Feeling the love!

Wow - what a great response from so many people. Thank you all so much from the bottom of my heart for your all emails and messages of love and encouragement. I truly didn't expect it.
Now you all need to pass it on to your friends and family - circulate people, circulate!!

I had a shocker of a day yesterday and to come home to so much love, gave me back my perspective again.
Anyway - back to my yucky day, well really it was just a very sucky afternoon.
Firstly just before I'm ready to leave work to come home, the heavens opened up, torrential rain fell, it was so bad that 5:oo came and went with everyone still sitting at their desks, it was too bad to even think about getting in the car. Around 5:15 it started to ease off a little, so I got brave and decided I was going to make my move. I spent a lot of the next 40 minutes just sitting in traffic with the rain pelting down on the car and going through puddles that you could have sold tickets to and used for a swimming pool. But that was ok; I was very patient and knew that I would make it home eventually. Joe rang a couple of times to check on my progress - (thank you babe that was very sweet). When I finally got to Arundel, I had to stop at the supermarket for a couple of things. I didn't feel like it, I didn't want to, but I had to, so I stopped and went in to get what I needed. On my way out of the car park, I had a little altercation with a young thug, who apparently thought I had wronged him out of a little of the road space (I hadn't) - but I suppose he wanted to impress his passenger or maybe that’s just the way he deals with life. He squared up to my window, stopped the car, flicked his hand at me in a condescending shooing motion and said - move the f**k over!! At this stage I had just had enough - so then there was a viscous exchange of some not so very nice words, (sorry Mum & Dad) which he ended very maturely with showing me his middle finger and sticking out his tongue? I just shook my head and drove off in absolute disbelief at the growing intolerance we show to each other, when something so minor can cause such a display of outrage.
Finally I made it home, only to find my beautiful boy with this trousers rolled up to his knees and pushing a broom, sweeping all the water that had accumulated at our front door, he was sure it was going to get high enough to get in the house. He said he’d been there sweeping for the past 20 minutes. Jessica rang me at work this afternoon and I told her about it, she asked if I had gotten a photo of Jayden on the other end of a broom, because nobody is going to believe that part of the story. Sisters can be so cruel!
I relayed the story of the moron in the car park – of course he wanted all the information I could give about who had been so awful to his Ma. I felt very loved and told him that I was ok and he didn’t need to pay any sort of retribution on my behalf.
We had a bit of a chat about our day and then he went in to have a shower. He told me that he would be staying the night at Amy’s (his girlfriend’s) house and asked me if I would be ok. I told him I would be fine as long as it didn’t rain all night. He told me to make sure I put lots of towels down to soak up any water that might come in and then happily left me on my own. Thanks mate! That love I was feeling from him earlier….not so much now!!
Jayden had been gone for about an hour and I remembered that he had said there was mail in the letterbox that he hadn’t got, the rain had stopped and we were losing some light so I thought I would just pop out and get it before it got too dark. I had only taken two steps out the door when I saw something moving in one of the puddles at the end of the path – yep, it was a snake!! It must have heard me coming, because it quickly swam through the water and into the garden. It was at that point that I decided that whatever mail was there, was not that important and could wait until the morning to be retrieved.
That’s when I finally got to relax and turn on my computer and felt all your love – funny how it came just when I needed it – thank you beautiful friends and family. In the words of the great Jeff Fenech – “I love yous all” J
(a little chat that I had at work with Siggsy today also helped) Siggsy is my office pal, he is the sweetest guy you would ever want to meet. His mother should be very proud of her beautiful boy. We often have deep and meaningful conversations and I love him so much because he ‘gets’ me. I can’t say that about many people in my life. You know how you walk in the door of your home and the reason you know your home is because all of a sudden you transform into yourself and the people in that house, ‘get’ you. It’s like you peel off all the layers that you apply to yourself before you walk out the door in the morning, layers that protect you, layers that hide the insecurities and doubts about yourself, so many layers that you don’t even recognize yourself anymore. Well that’s how I feel with Siggsy, I feel very comfortable just being me. I told him today that I thought Karma was just a big ol pile of poo and that I really didn’t believe in it. I told him that I thought the meaning of Karma was that you attracted back to you what you give out – but that I really was being hammered by that theory and couldn’t believe some of the crap that is presented to me by random people. He told me wisely, that he had given that theory a lot of thought himself and actually gave consideration to being as angry at the world as he sometimes saw the world to be, but thought that if he lived his life that way he would surely be setting himself up for encountering constant bad energy. So ultimately he would put up with a little bad fortune to stay true to himself. Like I said, a very wise young soul.
So now that my tale is done, I have decided that it was time to put an end to my afternoonus horriblus and go to bed.
Goodnight all, kisses, Joanne xx